Thursday, February 28, 2008

S-O-N-G


Brazen heads; whining, mopping, mumbling, low,
Waiting; for a faithful hand, to begin the show.
Strolling so someone, the song begin,
So it starts and they, casually, join in.

But before, the artist appears,
All the trembling uncertainty longing’s built.
Hoping that their Beelzebub disappears,
When the song reaches crescendo’s hilt.

For a human artist arrived at zero,
Masses cheer him, “The Crucified Hero”
He sought to tame society, the rabid hound.
Thus bartering love for a thorn made crown.

This man believed in love’s force,
His faith unshakable and reason its source.
Before his death thus moaned a song,
Misunderstood, misinterpreted for so long

Jesus:
“Sing me a song!
But-not-for-me-alone,
Sing out!
For you aare bless-ed
There is; not one among you
Who cannot, win, the kingdom!
The slow; the suffering
The quick
The dead”

Crucifiers and molesters; the people of ages.
“Hey zana,
ho! zana!
zana! zana!
ho! zana!
haaae zana!
ho! Zaaa-naaaaaa!
Hey J.Cee.
Jey C!.
Wont you daa-ie fo-hor me
Zana ho...
Zana hai...
Superstaaarrrrr”.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Broke ANd Became THE Old MAN'S Face

Old Man John Had A Brilliant Dream,
To Fly His Plane Despite All The Scream,
He Thought He Could Do, All At Once,
Such And More Impossible Turns,
But Old Man John Forgot the Law,
That Gravity Attracts All Somehow,
Flew With Fervour, Hither Tither,
The Dumb Plane Knew No Better,
And Old Man John A Sound heard,
Before He Became An Uncontroled Bird,
The plane Dismatled in Various Ways,
Broke And Became The Old Mans Face.














Note: Photographs Made On 3ds Max.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

The BLACK; Colored Forest



In came running the gentle Miss. Claret like a rocket on its way to the mysterious blue moon. She shot through the kitchen, slamming the door so hard that the whole house started to literally shake, the true limitless run of a child’s limbs, and ran to her room plunging right under the bed like a dolphin plunges into the blue divine waters of the oceans. She looked sweetly frightened, as she pinned herself to the dark corner at the end of the bed. Comfortably packed in her purplish dress that whispered with her knees. Her soft red cheeks and her red lips had become further more heightened in color with all the running. She was trembling.

“Miss. Claret! I will not tolerate this behavior in this house. This is a house of gentlemen, and you are a fine lady yourself. You will not be seen running around taking the whole house down as if you had been chased by a ghost”, screamed poor Triviela from the counter behind the kitchen. “You will learn to be a lady and come down at once.”

Triviela had been with the family for longer then the family could remember and so had been her mother and her father. She could not recall living anywhere else but the back garden house they had been living in for the last three generations. And for all one knew, they might have been there since before that but no one could recall. She had devoted her life to this house and its members, and was herself considered a part of the family. Claret was her favorite time pass; a kid of 7 as she was, with no care of anything. Triviela loved her. Triviela’s father had been the right hand man for Mr. Robert Alister Simpleton but he had died of a stab in the heart by a young white boy who lived in the neighborhood, and her mother had run away with another man (not the left hand man, no!). Since then she had lived alone in the house.

“Miss. Claret, are you coming down or do I come up?”

The trembling silence in the aftermath of an unknown shock. She stormed the stairs and went straight to Claret’s room. It was on the left side of the stairs, right above the kitchen, with a white door. “Miss. Claret you will stop playing games and come out from wherever you are hiding this very moment”, ordered Triviela in a voice that could have made the naughtiest mouse surrender. But nothing came out. She waited for some instant and then looked under the bed.

All her anger melted down in one flash of concern. “Oh! Miss. Claret what happened? Why are you crying?”

From between the gentle quivering lips Miss. Claret pronounced “There is someone beyond the farm, in the trees.” And hid herself deeper into the corner.

“OK! Now come out Miss. Claret and we’ll call your brother and he’ll look into this matter right away.”

Joseph Alister Simpleton had just returned from his school for his holidays and had been busy marking birds in the blue painted sky since the day he had arrived. At 21 there was not a soul as ill bred as him. With his gun hanging by his side all day, he would wander through the village and the entrance of the forest looking for animals and birds to shoot. His annual report had followed closely behind him, and Mr. Simpleton did not look very pleased at the sight of it. But no one could make the young simpleton understand. Mr. Simpleton had uttered just one sentence to his wife, when he saw the letter. “Darling; spare the rod, spoil the child!” His mother had definitely not been very delighted either, but she just kept convincing herself that her precious little child would learn some day and that day would come soon.

Since it was still early for a huntsman on a holiday from school, Joseph was still in the process of putting on his clothes and hunting boots when he was summoned by Triviela. He came out abruptly when he heard that his sister had been frightened by a Mr. someone hiding beyond the farm.

“Mr. Joseph, someone has scared your little sister while she was out, playing this morning. I want you to come along with me to check on this person since your papa and ma, have gone to the city on some urgent errand and will be back by this afternoon.”

They were both leaping towards the end of the farm, where the forest started. Mr. Joseph had taken along his gun, thinking it might be useful if in case it was someone more powerful then himself. He had a slender figure. And Triviela merely strode alongside, her head held high with all the confidence and grace the universe could summon in one person. All the field hands on the plantation stopped to greet both the visitors. Triviela, because they all loved her, and Mr. Joseph because they didn’t know how else to react, unless they wanted to get into trouble. With merry voices sweating with labour they inquired of the rush.

Triviela was a beautiful lady in her late 20’s. No one knew precisely her age. But it was popularly thought to be 29 at that point in time. Popularly because she was the heart throb of many a folks. Her beautiful grey eyes and her gentle small face with the sharp jaw and silent features, had since forever been a topic of long discussions among the young black gentry. Men would sit around in bars in the Negro areas and talk through the night about how she had enchanted each one of them by coming in their dreams. Talking till almost morning at times through vain disoriented sentences, until the snore of one awakened the others to the limits of the world and all stumbled towards home to be screamed at by their mothers.

With Mr. Joseph by her side she could not dare to answer to any of the black folks. And Mr. Joseph himself was too arrogant to answer to a bunch of black farm slaves. So she kept her pace steady towards the forest without even a glace at the calls from the plantation all around her. Everyone knew the reason, and did not mind it. They had enough respect for both Triviela and old Mr. Simpleton, to not care about such things.

There were two entries to the forest, one through the main road, which was used as the commercial and social route of communication. And the other was a goat path, used by the negros of the village, to communicate between the cities, since they were not allowed to enter the main road. Unless of course they were being taken to be traded, but even that happened very seldom now a days.

The plantation was a huge farm of cotton acquiring three flat hills. It was the largest plantation anywhere in a radius of a hundred miles. The rest were smaller; much smaller. But this did not make anyone envy the Simpletons. Everyone was aware that old Mr. Simpleton’s sweat was in every inch of this farm. It had been the only farm where the owner’s had worked along side the labour to bring about the plantation. And each year they would celebrate together after the day of the harvest.

This of course was something of grave concern among the neighboring white folks and Mrs. Simpleton often had to listen to long lectures about not letting her husband mix with such low folks. But she was wise enough to know when to speak and when to keep quite. She would listen to all these comments blurted out, in the name of concern but never ever mentioned a word to her husband about it. Mrs. Simpleton, although had acquired this name after her marriage, but it seemed that she had forever been born to acquire this name. She was the simplest soul alive. Her house was the only house where even the labors from other plantations came to greet on occasions. Mrs. Simpleton was the only person in more then a hundred miles invited for all the black ceremonies, every time they took place. It was not that Mr. Simpleton was excluded, but he hardly had time to visit anyone, so he was excused. Although he had a habit of personally apologizing for not being able to make it. And people respected them from their hearts; from the bottom of their hearts.

The white kinds from the other plantations had nothing to do all day. The girls used to get together and giggle under this tree or that, until summoned by their nannies. And the boys would loiter around chasing dogs or playing one stupid game after the other until lunch and then continue the routine. But as they would see young Mr. Joseph out with his gun they would run towards him. Triviela and Joseph had reached the goat path when the white kids spotted the gun. Their run and chase started the next moment.

Triviela knew very well that her poor darling Claret did not like the other white girls and spent most of her time around these parts, plucking flowers and singing songs. Claret was a sweetheart, like her mother. She kept the company of the workers and kept reminding them that some day when she was old enough she would join them in their work. She often came to play around these parts and the field hands keep a watch on her from where ever they were. Not because they had been asked to, but because they loved to. But today even they had been surprised as she shot to the house, half running-half jumping upon her small legs at the speed of a bullet.

The white boys arrived in a state of absolute hysteria. Young Mr. Joseph, to prove his worth did not even look at them. But they followed him wherever he went.

Triviela suddenly saw two eyes looking at her from behind a tree, and Mr. Joseph saw it too, only that the eyes did not see Mr. Joseph.

Triviela with a touch of fear and concern asked the man in a slow voice as he came out from behind the tree, “Oh! Was it you over here when Miss. Claret was playing right now?”

“Ye! I was it. I thought I will surprise her, but Miss. Claret ran before I even moved”, answered a hoarse voice.

The field hands had all risen by now from their work and were all looking in the direction of all the excitement. Curious about the nature of the excitement.

“You dared to frighten my sister? You will be punished”, commanded Caesar.

“But sire I didn’t intend to, she know me well. I was only playing”.

There were trinkets of pearls somewhere at the bottom of two beautiful eyes. Just at the edge, threatening to fall. Triviela knew the course these events would take in the given circumstances, with the given people. Two of the boys ran backwards towards their house. This was the beginning.

“What were you doing here?”
“I see Miss Claret playing here, and I had wanted to meet you before we married, so I thought I would go along with her to meet you”, replied the hoarse voice. “It is alright. I will bear it”.

The boys brought a chair and a whip.

Friday, February 08, 2008

Is This The Real Life? Or Is This Just Fantasy?


Who am I, and what have I become!
Life is the same, as when it begun,
If all I learnt, I learnt to discern,
Make it not me the crawling worm?
"A Faithless Brute" tattooed on arm
Lying to attain false social charm
I meant not waste, meant not harm
But such is life and such its perm,
Reason of mine, not reason for some.
To walk this day till that day come
The promised hand, the promise of one
But isn’t mere waiting, also to be dumb?
Idling with nothing, nothing to learn
Facing stagnation, facing fears gun
Pointed towards me, my soul all numb
In boredom, boring old songs I hum
In powdered confusion evermore I slump
Who am I, and what will I become?
Rack my brain will the answer ever come?

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Sugar




The craving
Gelatin
Sack in
Bit-ween
The legs,

Forms fluid wet thoughts
Surrender the snake flesh
In search of the dark purse
Beneath the salty forests

“Oh! sugar pie,
Come! Dance
The dance of death
Between your legs
Let’s stain the beds”

Born to suffer
And surrender
Yet she refuses,
They wonder!

“Come now sugar
Surrender to our guilt
We are the mob
From despair’s pit”

Held her wrist
Put a gun under
Yet she refuses
They wonder!

That pain.
The white sheet.
Touched and torn.
Jaws of the moon,
Jabbing at the ivory.

Sweet sugar melted
Screaming; rising tide
Blood moon pelted
With lust as its guide
We need to learn;
This Night!!
We Should…!!
We Must…!!
- Ripples Of Collections Of those Things

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Baked Bored Moon

- Bored silence,
Baked bored moon,
Blue bored trees,
The Amateur fool.

- Your palm’s sweating – Expressionlessly, she asked - Do you want to leave my hand for sometime?

Strange; why would she want to leave his hand – Thinking; he declined.

- Are you forever going to be this quite?

He has read in those books that love can best be described through silence. His eternal vow, never to utter a word. He truly loves her.

- Martyrs of those love poems
I pity your innocence.

- Poor victim of book shelves, it’s just your addiction of the idea of loving me - she thought; leaving.

- The last episode, of the last goodbye
I’ll send you a smile; sometime.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

The question is. Where is the dream?

I believe that a sudden mellow wind, the kind that sweeps from within a creature but feels like its coming from somewhere way outside and afar and is sudden; and with much uncomfort, lifts a boy or man or any creature for that matter; lets say a dog (assumption), had lifted me up. I think I was in love.

It happened at partial night, the span of light and dark, together - when the moon presents itself with bold vigor and the sun; desperate, tries to engulf it into oblivion. To erase its mere vision (But shallow deeds and thoughts are hardly ever rewarded). Evening. I was walking out on a grey road. Straight and unconscious, conscious of only a parley in my thoughts.

- Walking down the city of dreams,
Walking Striding my city screams.

A pompous loud car swam by my side at great speed.

- A little to the left and the reason of man would be dripping in soft red haste, dignified be our death. Amen. Dimensions change form with slight hurt. Do we all hurt? Is pain a thought or a feeling? Or both simultaneously? Does death bring peace? Or is it merely an excuse to change form. "I am tired of these clothes, let me put on this new one", so said my soul to nature.

- Bring me the sweating pain of a dime,
And I will gladly show you all of mine.

- Reproduction is the beginning of death! "Strange thought". But then death might be the point of reproduction of some other circumference. Something else. Something that we do not understand. Morrison says we are looking for something that has already found us. Could this be the probable reason why we do not understand? Or may be we do understand but do not realize. Can that be true? The true depth of the realization of an understanding has nothing to do with the education of the mind or the nurturing of it with-things-fed. It can only reciprocate to one stimulus; experience. Then what is survival? An act to prolong the attainment of death!

I hopped to cross a pothole and landed on my left leg. Tried to balance myself for a long moment. Just like that. And started to walk again. Strangely not many people were there on the road. May be it wasn’t a weekend. I can’t recall. I won’t hold myself in contempt for that. I was looking straight. Trying to figure out the path an arrow would take and where its mark would be, if I was it. And suddenly. A pair of eyes, clear as the morning sea. Full. Vast.

- Your eyes are pretty loud little girl
They remind me of fresh begotten pearls
What ocean do they carry?
Or within it do they vary?
Such wet wisdom and waves
I hope my life it saves.

She was coming from the other side and she caught my eye. I wasn’t staring. She held my gaze for some precious moments and then let them fall. Like an eagle. Eagles circle their prey for a period of time, from very high in the sky. They have the eyes of the gods. Then suddenly plunge into something that resists it. It wants to dig at higher speed. The resistance is not something it can understand; only that it knows there is something that will resist it. She let her eyes drop. This was the resistance, but I wanted to continue. I wanted to penetrate through the resistance of a stare, and look into her eyes. I turned back and she was about to enter a shop, along the road.

- There is a shop beside the stream
it sells divine immaculate dreams,
She whispers with her eyes,
Like the splendid voice in my dreams,
She wants to shop beside the stream.


She looked back to look at me and i could see them. Her eyes. You could find all the knowledge in a sight. Blasphemy. Religion. All of it is a gesture. Those eyes are my prize. Let me look into them. She carried oceans and rivers and lakes full of mountains of future. Not one but two. Beautiful both of them were too. Her black hair as if insulting all of nature. Calling. Competing. Can you compete? Oh! Beat me? What a joke! Her lips I remember where red. I had once tasted a strawberry. It could not satisfy my imagination. The lips of Hera. A symbol of sensation. I want to hear all that they could speak. To me. She wore the feathers of a peacock. Rich and vibrant. I wonder if she could dance as well. All pause to hale and rejoice this beauty.

- Goddess of delight
Hold on to this night
We need your arrow
To mark our dreams.

Vhrooom! screeech! A car pauses. Three men look at her; one smiles. There is no surprise. She does not recognize them. They rush out of the car. The eagle comes to its prey, unheard, unannounced and unwanted, at an odd hour. It picks it up, lifts it and swoooooom...there goes the prey, I’ll see you some other day. But it might not be in this world. They picked her, not in a manner that you would pick your girlfriend or your wife. She screamed.


- I have sensed a scream
Its shrill I have seen
Not heard for I was blind
I'll see her at the end of time.

-Protest is a liberty in a democracy. I have forgotten what they call it in a dictatorship? They carried her to the car. Those beautiful eyes. I saw the river that flows from the hair of Shiva. It was not as pure. I tried to move, to protect. Something that in a strange void of reason and thought seemed to be mine. But what was I to do? They forced her into the car. The streets were crowded now, with silent spectators and wise council: don’t involve yourself. Fear is not the thing you can hold in contempt. its just wrong. The spectators of ruthless safety didn’t move. I didn’t move. The engine gunned. A recollection of movement in the stomach of the car. The car says i can turn the wheels real fast, if you can provoke me to. The man, who had smiled, was now provoking the car.

- The wheels may turn
And they could burn
Too fast, if, along
The road you went.

There was an explosion. Loud and clear. Something was burning, was it my soul? The tires had caught fire. Shaking as if hot with fever, yellow fever. The car stopped and shivered. Out flew a dove, from the window. Some feathers of the peacock. Stripped out of her body. Beasts prefer their feast carved. Two men ran down to the car. They picked up the feathers and were trying to smell the tattered piece. Not all senses function at the same time. The mind can only act at one thing. No one was expected to hear her screams? You could either see or smell. We are humans after all not god.

- The dusty devil, dawns,
We were copulated mere pawns,
Satan come and save me
These beasts are worse then thee.

A young boy moved. David. His sling in his hand. Faith in his heart. Courage in his eyes. To save the world from the soul of the stone. He flung himself towards the car. He was running. I didn’t know what he was doing. He picked up a piece of brick that lay beside the road. Lazy and alone, no one cared for it. Abandoned, he gave it glory. He threw it towards the car. The sound of breaking glass has always attracted human ear. It’s the multiplicity of that one sound that it wonderfully attractive. The crushing lets say humming sound, the clinging of it, which sticks to the ear.

- A serum becomes the rock
When held within you palm
If only courage was in stock
Held within a righteous arm.

He didn’t realize that there were more men behind him then he could expect. He didn’t care.

- There is a small dot of a point of contact between absolute fear and Achiellian courage. It’s unpopularly called the point of knowledge of one's moral premise. Where man is ready to deny himself guilt and thus stands up to his own standards. Without fear. Without care of the hypocritical wisdom of the social order. It takes a moment to decide. Just one.

- Who made you the strong?
Was it not those staring eyes?
Listen to the sound of the dumbfound!
You’ll unearth things you'll despise.

The three turned. Saw. Ran. The girl lay there in the car. Bleeding arm and blood pool beside her head. Her clothes torn. Feathers of the peacock. Brilliant and lost. Pulled out with a vengeance of guilt. They were bread with it.

- To keep it in your gallery
In a careless pot of gold
To show to Mrs. Hillary
How high your head you hold
Not your fault Mr. Gunner
You did what you thought was told
It is the fault of the simple feather bird
That thorn instead it did not grow.

The glorious stone had hit the car at the right time, she was only hurt. Not ravaged. The boy went up to her. Puppets of cowardice like me moved behind him. Reminding myself that I could have saved her as well. Convincing myself that it was a fact. Looking into her eyes. The streams had put sediments on her cheeks. She was crying. Lying there and crying.

- Oh! Sweet angel thy feathers shall grow
How that will come about, I don’t know

He reached for her. David. The hero of ancient ages. He had slain goliath. He reached for her and took her away. And those eyes with her went to despair.

- is it necessary to claim what one wants. Why not earn it? Is it a flaw in the human mind that we want things and we force ourselves to forget the right way to achieve it? Or is it just a flaw in the education system? The moral system? The code of law that has been delivered to us through the ages; through the sages? Are we sure that it does not promote desperation rather then salvation? Man is not a beast but a worshiper of cunts. Too eager to go back to where he came from. Why are the men that don’t worship this slit in the human genome; despised?

- Nietzsche said that man is the stepping stone, the middle of a rope which connects the evolution of apes into super man. This is how it was supposed to be. Probably. If you want to believe it. This was how nature intended it to be. But then the gods came in and then apes became man, only to become apes again. The complete evolution of evolution.

- The power of wrist;
The wisdom of your fist;
Your dramatic wonder;
Divine nature;
Is, all, lost.
Because
We lacked
The dream.

So I say to you come I will show the ape-man.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Lunetic Lake

I can not return riders
I have wandered too far
You can sweat the same road
I left the strange door ajar

How sick would it be
To fill all of life
With two promises
To live or die

There are horns waiting
Jingles, ribbons and wine
How wierd at the end
If death not be mine

Oh promised grave, delight
That musty strange smell
My odour wont be ruthless
Just my soul; stench.

I have lived long and hard
A sore in the head of time
Travel to the ancient hour
Surreal limits, hand in dime.

Through that dream we soaked
Beside the moment of utter wake
Right before we slipped into
Deaths promised lunetic lake.